3 Legitimate Fears

     30 Day Blog Challenge, day 2 - name 3 legitimate fears that you have and describe how they became fears.

     Running out of time. And by that I do not mean death, though I suppose that's part of it. I'm not afraid of the act of dying or how I'll die as much as I'm afraid of when I die. But it's not even entirely about death. It could be something as simple as not having enough time to study for a test, or making time for my writing and paintings and guitar and sign language... But sometimes I think it goes beyond stress. It builds up so much, I panic. I have so many goals for my life, but I spend more time worrying about whether or not I will have time to complete them rather than actually just getting them done. It seems so easy to accomplish; it could even just be something like a change of perspective. But it's a nagging fear; one that I can't seem to shake off.

     Being a mother. I've been told this is a common fear for young women, even before they're pregnant. Of course I plan on being married first, but even then I'm not sure I'd be ready to be a parent. People tell me I'd be a good mother, but I worry about making the slightest mistake. Plus, it's exhausting. As fun as it can be, babysitting and being a nanny alone is takes out a lot of energy. I'm not worried about being selfless; I can do that. I'd gladly spend all my time and energy on someone else. But the more tired I get, the more short-tempered and impatient I get. I suppose that's normal. But I guess I'm expecting Carol Brady from myself.

     Anything with a stinger. Wasps. Bees. Yellow jackets. Scorpions. God slapped a needle on it and called that good? Not in my book. I cower from them. So much to the point that I can't even bring myself to get close enough to kill them unless I absolutely have to. Things is, I'm not afraid of critters or rodents, and I'm not afraid of needles. So I really don't know why I'm so afraid.